It's very easy for me to make excuses and tell myself, "You have worked really hard, you deserve a break." But it has been difficult for me to convince myself this break is now over.
These things that I have been pushing off are the things that helped me accomplish my goals and made me feel 20 years younger. Being healthy opened up opportunities and adventures that were only pipe dreams at times in my life. I would have thought were more deeply embedded.
I've said many times that I will be battling my love of food for the rest of my life, but I didn't take into account how fast those bad habits rear their ugly, fat heads. Overconfidence and entitlement have put me behind on this goal of a healthy me. I am still struggling trying to get back on track.
Right now I should be looking into skin surgery, pushing new boundaries, trying to help others, but I'm stuck retracing my steps on this relentless road.